Man, I am really amazed that people are supporting this boxbust guy. Sounds like he clearly renegged on the deal and his excuse "I didn't want to ship something so valuable", doesn't even make sense....what did you expect when you made the deal? Were you going to hand deliver it?
Anyway, at least you admit it, but that negative was well deserved.
"I have learned over the years that when one's mind is made up, this diminishes fear." - Rosa Parks