No One Understands Me

[pierrethomasfan]

Originally Posted by GatorBoyInTN

Since I have been 12 years old, I have dealt with anxiety issues, suffered from manic depression, bipolar, and insomnia. Sometimes, like today, I wake up and feel like I am bound in chains in a deep dark tunnel and I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I try to avoid people so I don't snap on them, and it only causes more turmoil in my life. My family doesn't seem to understand what I go through on a daily basis, nor do they think it's real. I wish I had someone who understood me. I wish my life was normal. I wish I could a typical young man and not look in the mirror and not like what I see looking back at me. I am often afraid of my own reflection, and avoid looking in the mirror on days like these. I wish I had a release that was able to work on a daily basis, but it's just not in the cards for me. Maybe the chains will slowly lose their grip and the light will sparkle at the end of the tunnel, and today will turn out good. I don't see it though.

Signed,
A scared young man.

Pretty much sums my life up. Keep tryin to tell myself ill be alright but idk anymore

[tnarg]

Sometimes all you need is a visual aid:

[bazinga]

Originally Posted by tnarg

Sometimes all you need is a visual aid:

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[marino5084]

I raised two boys with the same issues. Raising them was difficult but we understood that what they were going through was even more difficult.

We saw many specialists and have watched as both have gone through what you are stating and worse. Drug addictions, suicide attempts, just about anything you could imagine.

I have only shared this with a few people on this forum but I am sharing now so that you and anyone else that is going through this can see what can happen with perseverance.

Both boys are now productive members of society. They were on many meds but felt the same way you are stating. They found alternatives to help. My youngest has been clean for over 8 months. He turned to the gym instead of drugs. He is 6'4" and 275 lbs and is built like a tank. He is a GM of a restaurant and is possibly going to own it with time.

My oldest went to school and is in the IT field. He has a genius IQ which is more normal than not with these types of illness. He is doing what he wants to do in life and enjoying it.

I will not say they do not have bad days but they have both found ways to handle these days.

Exercise is a remedy for many things in life. It truly helps. A good diet will help more than you know.

If you do not have anyone in your life that understands then turn to a therapist to talk things through. You have to deal with it and cannot sweep it under the rug.

I truly wish you the best and if you need someone to talk with, my PM box is open. If it is necessary I will give you my phone number. Just do not try to go through this on your own.

I am not going through what you are but I really do understand.

Take care.